aw man. i am bummed out right now.

yesterday i got a flat freaking tire and then it got ruined cause i'm an idiot and didn't know it was flat until i already ruined it. got to school too late to hand in my paper, and the only class i did get there in time to attend, was over so early that it was quite pointless for me to go at all.

today i wake up on time, and take mina to school on time, get home with my coffee, sit down to finish the paper that i stayed up till 4 am working on the night before last, and IT'S FUCKING GONE. gone. like not there anymore. like i know i saved it only a million times while i was working on it, and i even went through all the proper fucking steps before turning the computer off as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I learned a humbling lesson about making sure to save a backup every time

and seriously folks, the foster care crisis is not an easy subject to cover. it was a grueling 3 pages of my sweat and lost sleep put into ABSOLUTELY FREAKING NOTHING.

my heart is in my fucking stomach right now and i am feeling very discouraged. every time i get things going prettty fluking good, something else has to create some type of dramatic dilemma that throws it all off and creates a few more metric tons of pressure on my life.

aaaarrrrrggggggg!

it's days like these that i wish i was a vegetarian house cat.